Things haven’t been going exactly well for me these days.. I have currently nowhere to go to as of now. I’m helpless, clueless and i’ve got no direction. I don’t know how think right now. I don’t know what’s best for me. I don’t feel like doing anything, because i don’t know if i’m doing it properly or not. I don’t even feel like talking to anyone. I just wanna be alone.
I can’t seem to understand why it has to be me. Where everyones got somewhere to go to, and i don’t. Why can’t i just be like them. Why can’t things just go smoothly for me. Is it because i didn’t try harder? I was too happy-go-lucky? Careless? lazy? i don’t know.. I know i tried.
I feel like a disappointment. Someone who can’t do things right. I don’t feel like i’m good at anything. I just feel like a mess right now. Trying to look firm and strong on the outside, trying to think positive. Trying to make myself feel better. But sometimes, i can’t help but feel bad.
I guess this is God’s way of telling me that I gotta trust Him. Maybe He is testing my faith. I want to believe that He’s got a better plan for me. I’m not sure what it is.. but i’m going to work on it. I hope He can help me tell me what it is step by step. Lead me where He wants me to be. What He wants me to do. Right now.. i just gotta fix myself. Hopefully soon, something good will come out of this.
I just really need to take risks and praying for God to give me more strength and peace in mind. Really got to fix myself. Give me time. I’ll think through it more. once I’ve think properly and fixed myself.. Maybe, no, SURELY, i will become better.
Sometimes, we hit rocks, stumble and fall, but how do we get back up? Stand up by yourself, keep walking and moving forward. You can’t just stay there forever and wait for someone to pick you up. You gotta do it YOURSELF. I’ll be in good hands.
Believe and have faith in God. Thank you Lord.0 notes + reblog